Hey, Thought I'd poke my head in here...
About a month after the blog started, I started to get really physically ill. I lost about 40 pounds in the span of 2 months. (Wasn't trying... And that's
a lot of my body weight to lose.) I woke up day after day feeling sick as a dog. During all this, i started to develop anxiety and depression problems... Try waking up every day and feeling like a car hit you--it'll really get to ya. :-/
MR used to be my absolute favorite site. Watching it go from frivolous fun to trolling out the wazoo (a lot of it directed toward me) was disheartening. Waking up every day to see things like "is this a joke?" and personal attacks that had
nothing to do with the blog (IIRC, someone actually called me fat. Real mature. If it helps any, I look emaciated now. Thanks, weird GI problem that no one's been able to diagnose!!) really took all the magic away from MR.
(For the love of Teh Steve™, remember that there's another human being on the other side of that computer. Yes, the internet is serious business, but please don't be unnecessarily mean.)
My health and anxiety/depression issues finally got to be too much. I had to withdraw from uni, I stopped decorating cakes (all-time favorite hobby), I'd sleep all day, the only reason I'd get up is to go to work so I'd have some freaking money and my shift starts at two. Facilitated my 18-hour a night sleep pattern.
I'm still alive, I'm around in a limited capacity. I was doing better, but I've lost some progress: I'm still pretty depressed, but now I have body-image issues to mess with. (I feel and look like a bag of antlers.) And I still wake up every morning, sick as a dog. Every time I gain weight, I lose it back within the week. It's frustrating, to say the least.
So... Yea, my first public post in more than 4 months. Howabout that.