connoro
Jul 19, 2008, 12:47 PM
this is one chapter of "i am holding you and you are holding me and we are holding one another and it feels nice" by connor tomas o'brien. the different parts of the story are on different forums. the 'contents' page is at http://bye-polar-bears.blogspot.com/2008/07/i-am-holding-you-and-you-are-holding-me_20.html
thank you for reading.
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Jeffrey stood out the front of Sarah’s house with a Valium tablet and a bottle of gin. Jeffrey felt like he wanted to get ‘****ed up’ with Sarah, and he hoped that Sarah wanted to get as ‘****ed up’ as he did.
Sarah opened the door. “Go into my room.”
Jeffrey sat on Sarah’s bed and looked at Sarah’s photographs. There were boxes of photographs of the same few people. Sarah was ‘against digital’. In some of the photographs, there was a girl with a nostril piercing, big teeth, deep-set eyes, and a huge forehead. A ‘mystery girl.’ The mystery girl’s face was so perfectly out-of-proportion, it was wondrous. ‘Complex’.
Sarah poured the gin and Jeffrey took his Valium tablet and drank some gin also.
That morning, Jeffrey had thought about killing himself, in a lazy, abstract way. He felt as though his life had become a television show which had gone on for one season too many. He felt as though his life needed a dramatic ‘plot twist’.
After a while, a feeling of uncaringness washed over Jeffrey. Sarah said she felt “almost too drunk to ****”, and laughed. Jeffrey thought about crawling over to Sarah and becoming amorous with Sarah in her bed. There was something ‘going on’ between Jeffrey and Sarah. Jeffrey thought of Sarah as his ‘unspoken lover’.
Sarah said, “I don’t want Corinna to go away.” Jeffrey hugged Sarah. Jeffrey thought, ‘a sentimental moment’.
“I don’t feel anxious at all right now,” said Jeffrey. “My head feels clear, my senses heightened.”
“I feel sad,” said Sarah.
Sarah left the room and Jeffrey began reading Lonely Planet: Europe on a Shoestring. Jeffrey thought about climbing the Eiffel Tower with the mystery girl, watching the mystery girl chew on a baguette with her big teeth, and kissing the mystery girl’s huge forehead in a Parisian-style café.
Jeffrey felt lusty and contented. Jeffrey fell unconscious.
When Jeffrey woke up it was 4 o’clock in the morning and Sarah was sitting in her bed. Sarah was wearing her best shoes.
“My sister cut herself again and we had to take her to the hospital,” Sarah said.
Jeffrey thought, ‘The plot thickens’ and felt neutral.
Jeffrey crawled up to the bed and spooned Sarah. Sarah cried a little bit. Jeffrey thought about becoming amorous with Sarah but decided against it on the grounds that it would end up ‘awkward’ later on.
Jeffrey thought about severe depression. Sarah’s sister’s severe depression. Sarah’s severe depression. His own severe depression. His mother’s severe depression. Everybody’s severe depression.
Jeffrey felt severely happy spooning Sarah, and slipped into sleep.
thank you for reading.
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Jeffrey stood out the front of Sarah’s house with a Valium tablet and a bottle of gin. Jeffrey felt like he wanted to get ‘****ed up’ with Sarah, and he hoped that Sarah wanted to get as ‘****ed up’ as he did.
Sarah opened the door. “Go into my room.”
Jeffrey sat on Sarah’s bed and looked at Sarah’s photographs. There were boxes of photographs of the same few people. Sarah was ‘against digital’. In some of the photographs, there was a girl with a nostril piercing, big teeth, deep-set eyes, and a huge forehead. A ‘mystery girl.’ The mystery girl’s face was so perfectly out-of-proportion, it was wondrous. ‘Complex’.
Sarah poured the gin and Jeffrey took his Valium tablet and drank some gin also.
That morning, Jeffrey had thought about killing himself, in a lazy, abstract way. He felt as though his life had become a television show which had gone on for one season too many. He felt as though his life needed a dramatic ‘plot twist’.
After a while, a feeling of uncaringness washed over Jeffrey. Sarah said she felt “almost too drunk to ****”, and laughed. Jeffrey thought about crawling over to Sarah and becoming amorous with Sarah in her bed. There was something ‘going on’ between Jeffrey and Sarah. Jeffrey thought of Sarah as his ‘unspoken lover’.
Sarah said, “I don’t want Corinna to go away.” Jeffrey hugged Sarah. Jeffrey thought, ‘a sentimental moment’.
“I don’t feel anxious at all right now,” said Jeffrey. “My head feels clear, my senses heightened.”
“I feel sad,” said Sarah.
Sarah left the room and Jeffrey began reading Lonely Planet: Europe on a Shoestring. Jeffrey thought about climbing the Eiffel Tower with the mystery girl, watching the mystery girl chew on a baguette with her big teeth, and kissing the mystery girl’s huge forehead in a Parisian-style café.
Jeffrey felt lusty and contented. Jeffrey fell unconscious.
When Jeffrey woke up it was 4 o’clock in the morning and Sarah was sitting in her bed. Sarah was wearing her best shoes.
“My sister cut herself again and we had to take her to the hospital,” Sarah said.
Jeffrey thought, ‘The plot thickens’ and felt neutral.
Jeffrey crawled up to the bed and spooned Sarah. Sarah cried a little bit. Jeffrey thought about becoming amorous with Sarah but decided against it on the grounds that it would end up ‘awkward’ later on.
Jeffrey thought about severe depression. Sarah’s sister’s severe depression. Sarah’s severe depression. His own severe depression. His mother’s severe depression. Everybody’s severe depression.
Jeffrey felt severely happy spooning Sarah, and slipped into sleep.
