How long has it taken you to get over somebody? I talked with a former co-worker about his ex wife. He told me he'd let me know when he did. He was married for 20 years to her. Now is married to a awesome woman.
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Not sure how much worse 2010 can get for me. Lost my job in June, car is falling apart. Three months behind on rent. Can't get a job anywhere. Hate where I live. To top that off, my daughter's mom told me today she is getting married this coming March; flippin' peachy. I knew in the back of my head but I was doing OK at holding it back and not thinking about it. Worrying instead on being a good father to my daughter, going to school, etc.
I've done my best to try and move on from her with little or no progress. Gone on a few dates, all of them horribly awkward. Last date I went on the girl was out there. Told me she thought 9/11 was a inside job, was nuts about the twilight series. I looked at the $40 I spent on dinner as a learning experience.
Ex tells me I should date and meet new people, and when she finds out I'm going on a date wigs out on me and threatens my life if the girl try's to come in between our daughter. Took me long enough to convince her that wouldn't be a issue.
Lots more to the story. She's the first girl I was really serious with (lived together, had a car in our names, had a kid). Also the first girl I had ever slept with. Never was worried about it, didn't want to bang some skank in high school.
Wish my imagination would just turn off for a few years. All I can do is in-vision them sleeping together, their wedding. Things we had planned out. Makes me so mad I can't even find words to describe it. SOB is uglier than burnt cat *****. If they have kids, those poor kids only hope at life would be to get more than 50% of their mother's genes.
I wish I could just forget about her and kick her memories to the curb. I wouldn't trade my daughter for the world. But she makes it so hard to get over her mother when she looks exactly like her, is just as intelligent, just as funny.
<small rant>
Not sure how much worse 2010 can get for me. Lost my job in June, car is falling apart. Three months behind on rent. Can't get a job anywhere. Hate where I live. To top that off, my daughter's mom told me today she is getting married this coming March; flippin' peachy. I knew in the back of my head but I was doing OK at holding it back and not thinking about it. Worrying instead on being a good father to my daughter, going to school, etc.
I've done my best to try and move on from her with little or no progress. Gone on a few dates, all of them horribly awkward. Last date I went on the girl was out there. Told me she thought 9/11 was a inside job, was nuts about the twilight series. I looked at the $40 I spent on dinner as a learning experience.
Ex tells me I should date and meet new people, and when she finds out I'm going on a date wigs out on me and threatens my life if the girl try's to come in between our daughter. Took me long enough to convince her that wouldn't be a issue.
Lots more to the story. She's the first girl I was really serious with (lived together, had a car in our names, had a kid). Also the first girl I had ever slept with. Never was worried about it, didn't want to bang some skank in high school.
Wish my imagination would just turn off for a few years. All I can do is in-vision them sleeping together, their wedding. Things we had planned out. Makes me so mad I can't even find words to describe it. SOB is uglier than burnt cat *****. If they have kids, those poor kids only hope at life would be to get more than 50% of their mother's genes.
I wish I could just forget about her and kick her memories to the curb. I wouldn't trade my daughter for the world. But she makes it so hard to get over her mother when she looks exactly like her, is just as intelligent, just as funny.
