Ok, I do not know where to post this or how to go over so I feel I may share it here and see if there is someone with some good view. Please, I would ask you not to make a comment just because you feel like it, unless you have the experience do not make a comment.
I stopped talking to my mother since March probably. It felt bad at first but I am in a point where I do not care and I have been feeling very relaxed and focussed in my life, less anxiety. I haven't spoke to my older sister nor my brother even I am ok with him. My dad died and we were so close.
The issue with my mom I realized is that she is too dumb, she has this narcissistic behavior, she is always talking about peace and love and she is very nice to every one but she ignores me and she sort of want everybody to depend on her. My older brother is in his 40's but behaves like a 14 year old boy, he never succeed in anything and for my mom he is always first. He got married at 41 and when he proposed my mother told me I had to leave the house because I was going to move in with his wife. But it was years later that I realized my mom liked to have us into conflicts.
My older sister hates me because when I was born I was actually a really cute girl and it seems my mom used to compared us. What my mom did was to give her more rights in torn family issues so I realized that my mom never move a finger without asking my sister and even, when I have a boyfriend he has to be approved by my sister.
So my life was an story of trying to fit in and being accepted, I was never good enough and when I realized all those games after a load of therapies I made the comments to my mom. But she didn't want to change or realized anything, she didn't want to face how much she was hurting me. That my mom was my sister who always had something bad to say to me. On my birthday on February I went to her house to blow my cake, I brought my cake and as a present she gave me a bunch of pills for attention deficit! Is not that "I had it", it was like "more of the same". Out of us 3 I am the one who makes the most money, my brother depends on his wife and my sister from her husband. I am the only one single and with my own company, oh... and without heritage! they took it and wasted it all.
Still.... Christmas is coming. I do not give a damn about my mom. I am thinking in going to Hawaii in December to visit a good old friend. I just still thinking... what am I doing is the right thing? Am I going to regret it? I just feel so good, the last time I spoke to my mom she told me my sister had a car accident and she was in bed and I was like... what ever!
Thank you.
I stopped talking to my mother since March probably. It felt bad at first but I am in a point where I do not care and I have been feeling very relaxed and focussed in my life, less anxiety. I haven't spoke to my older sister nor my brother even I am ok with him. My dad died and we were so close.
The issue with my mom I realized is that she is too dumb, she has this narcissistic behavior, she is always talking about peace and love and she is very nice to every one but she ignores me and she sort of want everybody to depend on her. My older brother is in his 40's but behaves like a 14 year old boy, he never succeed in anything and for my mom he is always first. He got married at 41 and when he proposed my mother told me I had to leave the house because I was going to move in with his wife. But it was years later that I realized my mom liked to have us into conflicts.
My older sister hates me because when I was born I was actually a really cute girl and it seems my mom used to compared us. What my mom did was to give her more rights in torn family issues so I realized that my mom never move a finger without asking my sister and even, when I have a boyfriend he has to be approved by my sister.
So my life was an story of trying to fit in and being accepted, I was never good enough and when I realized all those games after a load of therapies I made the comments to my mom. But she didn't want to change or realized anything, she didn't want to face how much she was hurting me. That my mom was my sister who always had something bad to say to me. On my birthday on February I went to her house to blow my cake, I brought my cake and as a present she gave me a bunch of pills for attention deficit! Is not that "I had it", it was like "more of the same". Out of us 3 I am the one who makes the most money, my brother depends on his wife and my sister from her husband. I am the only one single and with my own company, oh... and without heritage! they took it and wasted it all.
Still.... Christmas is coming. I do not give a damn about my mom. I am thinking in going to Hawaii in December to visit a good old friend. I just still thinking... what am I doing is the right thing? Am I going to regret it? I just feel so good, the last time I spoke to my mom she told me my sister had a car accident and she was in bed and I was like... what ever!
Thank you.