when life wants to throw you a fast one and mess things up for you, it does it all at once and just dumps it there and stalks away: 1. Grandmother has cancer, my mom's mom, my other Grandmother died earlier this year.... so this is upsetting. I am close with my Grandparents, she lives three blocks away, i have never met my mom's dad as he died of lung cancer before i was born. The worst part is that my Grandmother has lung cancer too, and it has already spread to her liver. No chance of an operation, but hopefully with therapy she will be fine, i really don't know the details yet. no one does besides the doctors. 2. My parents are acting as if she is already dead. Dam*, don't they have some hope? They don't even know the whole of it yet. 3. My Mother is in a mid-life crisis, just got dentures, freaking out about her mom, menopause. This only adds to the stew. 4. i suspect my parents are leading or attempting to live lives separate from one another, meaning that they are talking to people online, perhaps intimately, perhaps seeing relationships, perhaps just trying to validate their self appeal, i dont know, what this means i dont know, but what it implies is disturbing. 5. i have to work on my birthday, when i originally had the day off, when i already work 40+ hours a week, and i found out that someone was going to give me one of the best surprises ever. Hopefully that surprise comes through, and i can get out of work early, maybe make something of the day, but that is still unlikely as it stands right now. 6. i was supposed to get a tattoo this weekend on my birthday. because of work, and because of other issues, this will not be happening, childish to be upset about it? maybe, but it represents something important to me, and was another step in my life. i guess i will have to learn how to walk later. 7. My cousin Jimmy is having knee surgery tomorrow to repair his ACL that he tore during practice. He is only in H.S. This one should turn out okay, but i worry. 8. My old neighbors, the ones who helped raised me since i was a baby, they moved to Biloxi a few years back, just barely survived the Hurricane. Thats the good news, the problem is that they are elderly, and very sick. They need oxygen to survive and only have a day's supply left at this point. I am worried about them too.