Ok. SO I am an atheist, but I can't accept that when I die, I will go into nothingness! My life, everything I have done, everything I will do... NOTHINGNESS! I don't know how this can happen! I just cant comprehend it. I don't want to accept it, I am in denial. I can't sleep at night because of this! I am a closet atheist, and my parents don't know I am one, and I haven't told them because of a possible (albeit very slim) risk of a huge requiring of lectures, and (this is gonna sound greedy) christmas presents. So don't tell me to tell them, and to go to a councilor. Macrumors, can you help me?