Being I have been a part of this forum for a few years now, I have not seen a decision like this. What defines you. What drives you in life? What makes everyday worth living? In my past life I was an oral surgery scrub, it was rewarding, it was fulling. It gave me a since of purpose that I guess I have missed in IT.. Before I went back to school for I.T. I still wonder if it was the right thing to do. But it is life. When I first came to California from Alaska, I was not a happy camper. I left 5 years of networking, friends, knowledge and job prospects for the unknown. 2 years into it? There is still no job, and some pretty thin prospects, but it's a damned beautiful place. My family means the world to me, and yet I am still wondering where my place is here. My wife will be going TDY again in a few weeks for damn near 4 months and I am wondering where my direction is. Thanks for looking and posting.