yes I searched for it on the macbook - its physically not there anymore - if I should have a hope - I have to restore something .. I asked at the Humac store, he told me there might be a chance, because I hadnt deleted it "the right way" - he could see that (whatever that means) - If I left it by them it would cost me min. 1600 $, and I couldnt be sure, that they could restore it.
So his advice was to find a forum like this...
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Ok thanks I will try to download a photo recovery app - and see if I succeed to find anything ... yeah I dont care about the library structure, but I would be more than happy to get all my images from the last 4 years back!!!
Thanks to you all for your help!!!!

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