I first started taking Adderall around a month ago, starting off with simply 20mg a day. It worked fantastic the first day, and pretty well the following week. However, as the days went on the effects of it lessened and lessened until it had almost no effect at all and I began to feel depressed after the adderall wore off. I researched online and found that was a common side effect. So I talked to my doctor and got my dosage changed to the adderall XR, so I would get 20mg in the morning and 20mg later on, and I was to take 20mg of the regular short-release adderall in the afternoon. Again, that first day it was great, worked well and I felt focused and happy.
However, this time when I took it the next day, the effects were severely weekend and again I felt that depressing feeling beginning. That carried on for a while, slowly getting worse and worse, until I decided to stop taking it for four days to see what would happen. It made me... depressed, tired, and unmotivated to do anything, and yet whenever I would take it again I would feel the depression still.
Two days ago, I decided to take 40mg of the regular adderall. This was amazing. In a three-hour period, I accomplished a ton of work I was behind on and felt very happy and productive. After it wore off, I felt a small sense of depression but not much. Yesterday, the depression came back as I went back to my original dose, which now does absolutely nothing for me. Today was the same, and the effects are worsening. Severe loss of appetite, tiredness, severe depression, lack of desire to be social, etc. It's really bad, and I can't see my doctor or therapist or anyone as all are either out of town or booked for weeks.
Point is, what do I do? The depression is much worse now, I can't enjoy anything on or off the medication and if I try taking the 40mg again, my body has built up a tolerance to it. I don't want to keep taking more and more to keep getting that good effect, but I can't stop taking it as it ruins my body and mind and this coming week is loaded with tons of work. I need to figure out something very very soon... Ironically the adderall has made me accomplish less, I'm very far behind on everything and need a solution, please, anyone?
PS this is long as hell, sorry about that
However, this time when I took it the next day, the effects were severely weekend and again I felt that depressing feeling beginning. That carried on for a while, slowly getting worse and worse, until I decided to stop taking it for four days to see what would happen. It made me... depressed, tired, and unmotivated to do anything, and yet whenever I would take it again I would feel the depression still.
Two days ago, I decided to take 40mg of the regular adderall. This was amazing. In a three-hour period, I accomplished a ton of work I was behind on and felt very happy and productive. After it wore off, I felt a small sense of depression but not much. Yesterday, the depression came back as I went back to my original dose, which now does absolutely nothing for me. Today was the same, and the effects are worsening. Severe loss of appetite, tiredness, severe depression, lack of desire to be social, etc. It's really bad, and I can't see my doctor or therapist or anyone as all are either out of town or booked for weeks.
Point is, what do I do? The depression is much worse now, I can't enjoy anything on or off the medication and if I try taking the 40mg again, my body has built up a tolerance to it. I don't want to keep taking more and more to keep getting that good effect, but I can't stop taking it as it ruins my body and mind and this coming week is loaded with tons of work. I need to figure out something very very soon... Ironically the adderall has made me accomplish less, I'm very far behind on everything and need a solution, please, anyone?
PS this is long as hell, sorry about that