forgive me for this. this isn't anything to do with Mac or whatever. but right now i'm scared. I dont even know why. i'm probably cracking up but still sane enough to know whats happening. basically I went on a big walk today over the moors with a mate. he was jumping on the ground which sent shockwaves through the ground. felt like the whole hilltop was a giant jelly. i didn't think much at the time but now its 3am and I'm trying to sleep its all come flooding back. I had this thought. now... im a bit scared of lava for no real reason. and I thought to myself... what is stopping the whole world melting into the magma beneath us? then I got really scared and planned how i'd spend the last minutes/hours as our world descended down. id be just too scared. also had a dream once when I was much younger. that the curtains to the front door where closed, but that the sun was so bright (super nova) that the light shone really bright under the curtains. Whats up with me! do i worry too much about things that are never going to happen in my lifetime? Also had a though about red shift which really got me scared. would the future have no stars in the sky? what about the big crunch? i believe in a god, I think. believing in that makes me a little less scared. but right now the problem is I cant sleep. I fear if i fall asleep that i'll have a really bad nightmare. of which I've only had 1 of in my life. that sent my heart into an SVT and almost knocked me out. god i wish my girlfriend was here right now EDIT: You know I blame all this on Red Bull. I dont drink caffeine or any energy drinks so that must have really smacked me in the face.