Thank you so much.I used to do custom software development. I live alone, worked alone, and had very little structure. During Covid, things got even worse. Creating structure in one's life, a routine, is an essential component of good mental health. It's also very hard to create that structure alone.
A few months ago I took a job managing a friend's restaurant. It's not my dream job and I'm actively working on my own new business idea (as I'm DONE with tech!), but it's been great for me to be part of a team again, have people who rely upon me, a schedule, etc. Obviously I don't know anything about your situation, but I would encourage you to find ways to be accountable to others, whether it's a job, volunteering, anything that gets you our of your solitude and solitary headspace and makes you connect with others, even if it's just an hour every week to start.
Have you ever tried using habit tracking software? I've started using one called Everyday. I like the Everyday UI better than a lot of the other habit trackers. A friend and I were recently talking and he told me about an interview he'd seen with The Rock where he talked about how we can look at life as "one day"...or "day one". Make today day one. Wishing you the best!
Such very kind words.
I wish you well on your own journey.