I'm not usually an emo person. But I think this will be one of those moments. I am usually a logical person. I dug myself out of a depression by discovering answers within myself that basically solved my outlook on life. When I feel something, I analyze it, found the real reason behind it, then gave it the answer it needed. Sometimes it is an illogical feeling, sometimes it is bad feelings because of two conflicting beliefs I have. Things like that. This almost always solved the conflicting issue within myself. But now, I'm out of ideas. I'm in a long-distance relationship. Basically, I'm feeling things that I do not understand. They are not logical, and I cannot explain them frankly to myself. So maybe you guys, with an objective view, can shade some light into that. Lately, I feel conflicting feelings about keeping in touch. At first, I wanted her to keep in touch with me all the time. She was not really keeping in touch constantly at first. I told her that I needed a little more. Throw me a bone here, I basically said. She improved. That ends what I understand. What I don't understand is that recently, I begun to have bitter feelings towards her. Even while I wanted her to talk to me, and I want to talk to her, at the same time I wanted to push her away. My feelings basically wanted to punish her, for what I don't know. I don't know why I wanted to push her away, and I don't know why I am being so bitter about this. I think what makes it worse is that I have no idea what it means, and why I am feeling this way. Maybe if I understood, I can give it an answer it wanted, and it'll be over with. I wish I can tell you more, but I don't understand it myself. Can anyone tell me? Perhaps they had a similar experience, and found the answer within themselves, or maybe they have an idea I don't. Ok that's all.