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I rarely drink now because I can't afford it and I get so utterly drunk every time, it's like I can't stop once I've opened the first beer or poured the first drink. I have been close to death many times because of it and it scares me.

The last time I drank (one big bottle of gin before going out and then hours of more drinking) I ended up in some very old peoples house, drinking all their booze and getting in the middle of a family fight and then I woke up in the morning, outside somewhere, on my back with vomit in my face. Not the best night I've had, so to speak! And it's always like that, it gets more and more out of control.

So - I try to play video games on the weekends instead. :)
 
Personally, I feel I used alcohol, weed or excessive binge eating as vices in a sort of escape from my current situations. For example, last night no one was home. I took a drive and ate a sandwich and hot dog, and two slices of pizza. Not the healthiest and I consider it a purge in being bored. The truth is I would've easily made a healthy juice but wanted to feel what only greasy foods could bring.

Many nights consist of not thinking about alcohol or weed or junk food in particular but rather about wanting to be in control of what I do, whether it be successfully studying, writing a paper, continuing my recent ethnography report concerning nightclub settings (of which I hate attending alone)... And when I'm not in control by tackling the items I need/should be doing, I release that energy by stopping at a drive thru or picking up some beer, or smoking some weed... All because it delays my to-do list.
 
I agree that a hobby of sorts may only be a temporary excuse, while my actions determine the true underlying problem. I've not had a drink since Tuesday, but I believe when it comes to drinking I jump in completely. For example, right now I have no desire to drink but if I do purchase a bottle say in a few days, then that bottle will last me about two to three days...tops, while I know many people that could make that bottle last at least a month.

Buddy, it really sounds like you have a problem.
 
Go all in, or go home. ;)

Nah, either learn to drink moderately, or stop. You don't sound like you have the capacity to control yourself.

Save the money and buy yourself a reward. Save for a goal.
 
Perhaps it's due to being a college student...

But it would be naive of myself to not admit the this past year living at university has entailed most nights of the week either drinking, smoking weed or both.

Here I am, at the time of this writing, bored. This produces a feeling of either wanting to escape, or at least to liven with current entertainment. Interestingly enough, I wake up every morning with a sense of regret and hangover the nights I do drink; never truly having enjoyed them. The reality is I wake up at 9am and do quite well throughout; i'll eat heathly, exercise, lift weights, study a bit, etc... but when nightfall comes I'm wanting to break away from boredom. I've called it "escaping" before. At times I'll think this isn't a problem, considering i'm only in college... but then again, I'm 24. Here at university I've met all ranges of individuals who drink or not. Some can sip a small drink throughout an entire night, i've come across cute girls that frequent bars in their pursuit of getting totally hammered. For example, my current roommate who is a good friend will have one drink an entire night and this is usually done while he is in his room studying. I admittedly, at night will drink to get a very good buzz going (Hey, at least i'm admitting it).

There are bouts where I'm be a complete health freak throughout my days and will eat nothing but egg whites, vegetables, exercising and lifting weights for a month on end... but then the next month will revert and smoke weed on a daily basis and even pour myself a drink in the afternoon as I lounge around in the pool.

I can say that drinking is fun, and though it is.. I feel its a nowhere road. For the longest time my best friend and I never drank. Somehow, here we are.. buying a bottle or two a week.

Iono, I thought i'd just open the discussion on the topic. Here I am, Friday night not wanting to drink...but somewhat bored, hoping but knowing it's not a good excuse.

I empathize with this endeavor as I recently made the same decision as a college student. Looking at what you've written though, I'm guessing that I was consuming much more than you were but feel free to take a look through my thread anyways. There's a lot of good advice, perspective and information in it that may be of use to you.

https://forums.macrumors.com/threads/1376731/

Roughly 2 months sober and I feel great. If drinking isn't for you, don't be afraid to give it up. Good luck!
 
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