As much as I don't care about the things people post on Facebook, someone a few years ago said something extremely defamatory about me one time (not on there, but somewhere else), it was so far over the top, it made me so angry, hurt, and frustrated. It made me think about how being extremely quiet for the last 10+ years has really screwed up my life in general.
Steve Jobs once said in an interview (it was that "lost" one even) that there are people who spend a lot of time using their computers because it's their only means of expressing themselves. That has been the case for me since pretty much since I learnt to talk. Well, not properly, they've been trying to do that for so many years now, and now I'm just getting worse since I haven't had those classes in almost 10 years now. But I've known how to type since I was a very, very, very little kid. I like having a conversation when I'm prepared for it, but otherwise I hate talking, I feel really stupid when I do, and I can hear myself being stupid and I will stumble once I have nothing else to say.
And because of my other disabilities, I can't do very much. I don't drive, I often trip over myself, I can only see out of one eye, so I sit in my room all day, browse news sites, post on some forums, watch/read iTunes U content, and try to keep myself busy. I go to school, only once a week (that's all that I can afford/handle), but it's also just a way to keep busy because I can only put that knowledge to doing stuff for my own projects.
So I only really post stuff on Facebook because of those comments someone made. They aren't even on Facebook themselves, but at least the friends that are on my list can't say the same things they did. The only problem that I really have is that everyone seems to be doing something that is fun and exciting, while I sit here doing nothing. So in turn, Facebook has made me feel really, really down every time I go through my news feed. I always think about deleting it for that reason, but then I also think of the negative effect that would have now.
I admit I'm one of those people that do play the games though (via my iOS devices anyway). But again, I have nothing better to do. Better to be doing that, chilling out, and not having a huge freak out like I have done on Twitter many, many, many times, and on Facebook on a few occasions now. Pretty much why I don't use Twitter now actually. Unless you have something to say, there's no point in posting.
