I am a huge music fan but lately music doesnt help, if anything it brings me down even more.
Hey Patmian - Shame that the music doesn't help. You recommend Madvilliany and Quasimoto to me a few months ago - those were the best music recommendations of the year for me. Interesting tastes for a 17y/o, IMHO. I teach kids older than you whose musical sophistication isn't much beyond three chords and 'deep' lyrics about BS...
I'm quite a bit older than you now, but my depression started in my teens and I did 'self-medicate.' Of course, those weren't the words I used for what I was doing... without going into the whole story, I was incorrectly diagnosed several times and was given meds that made me worse so I skipped out on treatment until last year (I'm past the age you can trust - over 30). I really wish I had had this treatment all those years ago because not a lot has gone especially well as a result....
Cred building aside, my advice to you is to get treatment. Therapy is better than meds, but if meds might help, like they do in my case, don't be afraid to take them. In the long run, you're probably doing yourself a favor. Hopefully, it's just a temporary thing with you. However, if you leave it untreated it could also get worse.
You should be wary of the doctor who wants to immediately prescribe, though. The first thing your doctor should recommend is therapy followed by a visit to a psychiatrist.
As for parents, your reluctance to tell them has me wondering what kind of relationship you have with them. If saying outright that you think you are depressed won't be taken sympathetically, why don't you try couching it in terms of the specific problems you are having. For example, 'I just broke up with g/f and all the work I have to do is stressing me out, I just need to get stuff off my chest with someone who is neutral. The problem is that I can't concentrate on my work very well etc..'
anyway... take care!
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