I've been low before but this time it's suffocating me - I can't see a way out of this mess. I finished a gap year this summer, where I travelled Singapore, Australia, New Zealand, Fiji, and briefly San Fran. I was all set to go to uni this year - and managed to secure a place doing 'Childhood Education' at Birmingham University. I have aims of becoming a Primary School teacher - and was assured this was the perfect course for me. It's not. So far all I'm learning is the history of education itself, and things related to child psychology and media clippings - nothing to help me deal with a class of 15/20 children. It's nothing I expected it to be - and some parts, in particular, the psychology, are going over my head. After 6 weeks I've decided I want to change course. The only thing thats really jumped out at me in the University prospectus is American and Canadian studies. I have e-mailed them and asked them, and am awaiting a reply, to see if they will accept me on their course. One of the other programs I asked to be transferred to declined, eventhough: They had space. I've only missed 6 weeks. I have a 6 week holiday coming up which I could use to 'catch-up'. None of the tests/marks you get in your first year count towards your final degree - therefore me losing marks for missing out on 6 weeks worth of work won't matter. I'm hoping tomorrow I can get the A&C Studies team to accept me as a student onto the course so that I can start getting my teeth stuck in. However if they don't, and here come's the life-wrecking bit, I'm left in this lovely situation. I owe: £1700 Overdraft £1100 Tuition Fee's £2000 Student Loan (Didn't even cover my accommodation) £2500 Remaining 32 weeks accommodation £7300 Total for 2 months of university. My Halls of Residence will not let me leave/cancel my rent until I find someone to replace my room - there is no one. I've been advertising for 2 weeks in the off chance I need to leave. That means my 7 weeks in University works out at costing over £1,000 a week! My Dads offered to take care of the £1,700 overdraft for me - bless him. But I'm still left owing over £5,000 - without even having a job. I wanted to leave university, work for maybe 7 months, pay off the £3,000 for tuiton and student loan, and save a bit for travelling, then return to Australia. That idea's gone out the window - it's going to take me well over a year to pay all this off. The contract for my accommodation didn't even arrive until 3 days before I was moving in. They forgot to allocate me accommodation - therefore I missed the cooling off date, and missed the inspection - surely in court I could challenge that since they screwed up and were late arranging my accommodation, well past the contract ''cooling off'' period, I should be given an extended allowance for the time they wasted to revoke the contract now, and bring it line with the timescale everyone else has? I'm hoping I get accepted onto the American Studies course so that I can stay in university and get my degree, otherwise I've just got into more debt that I can handle. It's making me feel sick to my stomach - I just want to cry.