Just wanted to share. It is amazing when someone you were dying for means anything anymore. My mind is clear, I am happy, everything is simple and just fine. Last year I met this spectacular girl, I am 37 and to mention that someone is spectacular at my age is something. The second time I saw her I saw the mother of my kids. The girl... lol... happen to suffer from something called Borderline Personality Disorder. She was neglected as a kid and I felt she was scared of things and very insecure in an unusual way. I felt into this "Superman Complex" I will protect you! But a person with BPD takes your "caring" and then go to search for more. She need so much attention to feel "I am here and I exist" that she flirts and get laid with everybody. Any way... I was shocked and then I knew what BPD was. It took me a while (several month) to take her out of my mind, specially because she was alone in this country and the friend she hooked up with were into drugs. I mean, that is what they use to deny their pain. But finally my mind got clear, I am not superman, I do can not save anybody and I have to take care of my own life. Easy to say, not easy to feel it. I even became very spiritual and started to pray to God, and trust me, once you surrender to him, what ever you ask him, he will make it happen, slowly but he will. I asked him to take her away from my mind and make me regain my center and it happened. I see pictures of hers but... there is nothing, no chemistry, I see someone actually annoying and that is it. Lets be ready for another girl, a fun one. Just sharing.