You may find what I am going to write below a bit weird, but it's how I feel, and I could really do with some thoughts, comments and advice from other people.
I'm 19 years old, work part-time and I am a full time student at Uni. I'm going to find it very hard to say what I am trying to say, but I'm hoping some people can relate and understand to some degree.
Below, I'm just going to list some statements which overall contribute to how I am feeling.
I feel as if I don't know myself. I find it hard to express myself - using words (I'm not a cold person though). I find it hard to list things I like and dislike - if you were to ask me what my favourite food, or film was I would find it extremely difficult. I am extremely indecisive. Half the time I don't know how I feel out anything. I feel my life is extremely boring and has too much routine. I would like to get in touch with myself a bit more - become more introspective... I don't know what I'm trying to say here... I'm just want to know myself better.
When I was younger, I used to be very creative, writing and drawing and flowing with ideas. Now, I'm 19, older, more mature and I feel I have no new ideas, writing and drawing seem difficult and pointless to me. I feel like I've lost touch on who I am, or rather who I was. I am happy with how my life is at the moment, I have never really lots of friends before like I do now etc, but it worries me somewhat that I don't know who I am.
I don't know if any of you have ever felt the way I feel. I have been looking on a lot of peoples' MySpace and Bebo (I know a lot of you detest those websites - forgive me!) and these websites always get you to explain a bit about yourself. I don't know what to write... it's worrying.
If you look at someone's random MySpace:
That person sounds as if they know themselves. I could never write anything like that about myself because I feel as I don't know who I am.
I know this post might seem a bit weird, but I'm just looking for some advice - I feel like a shallow person and I want to become much deeper.
Thanks for any advice,
Shaun
I'm 19 years old, work part-time and I am a full time student at Uni. I'm going to find it very hard to say what I am trying to say, but I'm hoping some people can relate and understand to some degree.
Below, I'm just going to list some statements which overall contribute to how I am feeling.
I feel as if I don't know myself. I find it hard to express myself - using words (I'm not a cold person though). I find it hard to list things I like and dislike - if you were to ask me what my favourite food, or film was I would find it extremely difficult. I am extremely indecisive. Half the time I don't know how I feel out anything. I feel my life is extremely boring and has too much routine. I would like to get in touch with myself a bit more - become more introspective... I don't know what I'm trying to say here... I'm just want to know myself better.
When I was younger, I used to be very creative, writing and drawing and flowing with ideas. Now, I'm 19, older, more mature and I feel I have no new ideas, writing and drawing seem difficult and pointless to me. I feel like I've lost touch on who I am, or rather who I was. I am happy with how my life is at the moment, I have never really lots of friends before like I do now etc, but it worries me somewhat that I don't know who I am.
I don't know if any of you have ever felt the way I feel. I have been looking on a lot of peoples' MySpace and Bebo (I know a lot of you detest those websites - forgive me!) and these websites always get you to explain a bit about yourself. I don't know what to write... it's worrying.
If you look at someone's random MySpace:
"A lot of changes have happened to me this year, i'd like to think all good ones aswell. and i would consider myself extremely lucky to have the people i have around me and to have had the oppertunities to snatch that i have.
I'm an optimist, as dreary and nippy as that can be, i cant be any other way. i dislike it when people think it is a good thing to think the worse in order to not be disappointed. i am rarely disappointed because if something goes wrong i usually end up doing something else just as good.
i sit an art course at the moment and i think its become my new passion to just make a mess all day, i love the feeling of creativity and i wish i could CREATE every day.
my friends will tell you i love everything, want to try everything..and am phased by absolutely nothing."
That person sounds as if they know themselves. I could never write anything like that about myself because I feel as I don't know who I am.
I know this post might seem a bit weird, but I'm just looking for some advice - I feel like a shallow person and I want to become much deeper.
Thanks for any advice,
Shaun