Hey all, I wanted to share a few issues I've been having with people on here in the hopes some people will be able to offer some advice and support - perhaps because you have felt similar. I'm 29 and my weight has fluctuated quite a bit since childhood. When I was 18 I got down to 205lbs (I'm 6'2"). However afterwards this crept up to 310lbs. In January of this year, I got bloods taken. My haemoglobin A1C was on the threshold for being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. The doctor informed me that he would retake the test after another six weeks and if it came back the same, or higher, then he would need to officially diagnose me with diabetes. This was like a massive wake up call which resulted in me understanding more than ever before about nutrition - especially carbohydrates, which I drastically cut and went on a diet of roughly 1200kcal per day and used MyFitnessPal. When I returned in six weeks, the readings had dropped and I have since continued my diet. My reading is now well within normal. I currently weigh 210lbs - I am aiming for a normal BMI so another 20lbs (roughly) to lose. So I have lost a massive amount of weight from the 310lbs I weighed in January . I have done all of this without a single bit of exercise which I really need to start doing. I am badly needing to tone up. I am aiming to reach my target weight just before Christmas. As I have lost weight my confidence has increased dramatically. I have started dating and had a short lived relationship this year which ended a month ago. This has been my first relationship since I was 21. I am a very shy and introverted person and when I put the weight on during my early twenties I really didn't want to be with anyone. I am thirty in May, something which freaks me out. I have never liked the idea of getting older. However, recently I have had this overwhelming feeling that I have wasted a massive and imported part of my youth by being overweight as this really hindered my personality. I didn't socialise at university, and only started to take steps that in hindsight I should probably have taken 6-8 years ago. I feel like I've squandered my time and now I feel regretful. I now have this overwhelming feeling to achieve and experience things. As such, I am booking a trip to Tokyo in April - which has always been a dream. It turns out I am going myself as my best friend is married and just recently had a baby and my other friends are unable to go. I feel like my life has been on hold long enough and need to start "experiencing" so have resided in the fact that I am going myself. I have never done anything like this before - I am shy and introverted and don't actually know if being 'immersed' in another country by myself for a week will do me good. I am already romanticising the trip - how it'll grow me as a person and how I'll socialise and have a good time and do all of these things that I would never dream of doing (or have the confidence to do) in my current country - including going to a bar on my own and maybe a one night stand with a local! However don't know if I actually have that in me. I like the idea of going on the trip before I turn thirty. Something I can at least say I did with my squandered twenties! I am finding that I am enjoying researching the trip and it's giving me something to focus and look forward to. Professionally, I have graduated university and have a good job which I was promoted in two years ago. That side of things has gone well. But my own personal development - I feel like I have nothing to show for almost a decade and I have this awful sense of regret and know the spirit of my youth in terms of mentality will never be able to be recaptured. I don't know if it is normal to feel this way. I look forward to hearing some of your views.