clayj said:
My childhood fantasy: Growing up to become a world-renowned architect whose modern buildings would dot the landscape.
When that fantasy ended: After taking 4 years of drafting in high school and drawing countless buildings before that, finding out that you can't get into a design school UNLESS you can draw things freehand. I cannot draw a tree, or a person's face, or anything else... but give me a straightedge, a scale, and a compass and I can draw almost anything.
i guess most of us find out that our childhood fantasies have roadblocks, but at least your fantasy was and is within reach
when i was a small kid, i wanted to be a world war II fighter pilot, like the ones i saw on tv in the 1960s, but then i found out in time that world war II was over and fighter pilots now flew uninteresting jets and the glamorous prop plane days were over
but as a teenager, i wanted to be in a rock band and be famous at it...at least that wasn't impossible, but still very, very improbable...so in the years that i should have been working on making it, i spent in college, or working regular non musician jobs for a paycheck
...so after college and some years in the working world, i knew i was too old but i still stubbornly formed some rock bands and played out at clubs and parties for a few years and lived out part of a fantasy by being in a rock band, practicing, gigging, and recording music...and by the time i quit the music thing, i was newly married and in my mid-30s and i had new priorities, so i was fine with just having been in a local band being limited to playing in my geographic area, as were the other members who had families or jobs that kept them around town
it would have been nice, looking back, to have tried the rock band thing before college and career and embark on some sort of long distance tour (the only thing i never did as a musician) to get it all out of my system...i could have always done college and career after the music career since i know a man who tried to make it in music, failed, and then went back to college and got a career...and his college studies weren't forever destroyed by some hard living, hedonistic rock lifestyle a decade long...he just didn't make it as a star in music so he used his 30s to start college study and eventually get a phd in ten years
of the four members of the band i was in the longest, only one really wanted to quit the cushy job and security and hit the road for months playing any gig that came along from coast to coast...and to this day, even though he is a middle aged man, he still feels a sense of having been cheated not having gone for it, as a musician, in a bigger way but i admire his drive to continue music today as enthusiastically as a teenager with a rock and roll fantasy
and who knows, he could still make it and get the last laugh
