So basically I just need to get this out of my system For the past year it just feel like everything that I was had or once was good at is gone. Like I used to be at the top of my class, but now I am a B student. In middle school I was a distinguished honors student. In 9th grade I was hardly high student. Last year I felt like I worked hard but could only acheive Honors. I feel like I am not as good as friends with my friends as a used to be, and some people I used to be very good friends with, are no longer friends with me. I don't feel as social as I once was. Additionally I don't feel like I am as athletic gifted as I once was. I have absolutely no confidence left in me. No matter what I tell myself I feel like I can never succeed. It seems like whenever I try to achieve something I can never meet my goal, whatever it is. I've never felt like this before. I don't know how to explain it but I feel like my life is on a crash course into failure. I feel absolutely miserable. Events transpired (that I don't want to talk about) today that was just a final blow to my already spiraling downward life. I feel like I've lost everything. I guess I am depressed, but not suicidal. I just want to get this off my chest.