Let me just start by saying Im Gay, and Im 28 So I've been hanging out at a particular bar for a while now (about 3 years), I don't drink, but I go there to play pool, and listen to music and just hang out. I've made some friends there over the years, but their really just "bar" friends, meaning we really only hang out at the bar. So anyway one of these friends, who I've know for about a year I have always kinda had feelings for. So a few weeks ago I gave him a ride home, and he asked me if I wanted to come in. We hung out for a while, watched some TV, and talked. He hinted at wanting to do more, but nothing happened. I didn't leave till like 5:30AM So then about a week before Thanksgiving we were hanging out at the usual bar, and he wanted to go to another club which I had never been too, so I said sure. We left about 2AM and went back to his place. We started talking and he started asking about my preferences when getting intimate if you catch my drift.. I told him that for various reasons I had never done anything with another guy (or girl.) He thought I was joking at first, but we talked about it for a while, and I shared some rather personal stuff, that I had never told anyone else with him. He was great about everything, we talked for about an hour and he didn't judge or laugh, which is how some people would react if I told them I was 28 and have never done anything. Now without too much detail there were some illegal substances involved (might share a name with a soft drink), I didn't do anything but he did. He insists it's only an occasional thing, and I honestly believe him, having hung out with him for over a year. So before the night was over we fooled around a little bit, I was nervous as hell since that was the most I had ever done. He was very supportive the whole time. So I ended up leaving around 5 AM again. (who needs sleep anyway) We've hung out some since then but it's been just at the bar, which is fun. So this past Sun I picked him up and we hung out all night and went "pool hall hopping." Was a fun night, but nothing happened besides just hanging out. To sum it up, I really like him, but he drinks a little much, and Im not so sure about the drugs (even occasionally.) He's not annoying when he gets drunk though, just talks a little fast I should also mention he has a boyfriend. Part of me is saying just stay away, but he is really a great guy. I don't think that you should cut someone out of your life just because they have some occasional bad habits. Im not expecting this to turn into a relationship or anything, but I can't help the way I feel. Some of my friends say I should tell him I have feelings for him, but I don't want to scare him away or lose our friendship over it. Even if nothing ever happens I honestly still want to be friends, I really enjoy hanging out with him, and like I said he is a great friend if you look past the bad habits. Sorry to rant, just been sitting here thinking and wanted to tell someone, may end up deleting this post in the morning Goodnight!