I just came back to my dorm from her dorm. She invited some of my residence neighbours and I to a little dry party. It is now almost 2am, but I'm still wide awake. All I can say is that I appreciate every bit of her and I have a lot of respect for her. I have known her for almost 6 years now - since grade 10, now I'm in my third year university. I don't know how this feeling should be officially classified, but I think I really really like her.
I can't think of any other girl that I like right now. I don't know if she notices this or not, and I hope she does. This kind of uncertainty is killing me, and I don't want to live like this anymore. I want to make a change. I don't know what this is going to do to our friendship. I know her parents, and they know me. Her sister and I are also friends. She's one of the few people on this planet that I can cry in front of without feeling embarrassed.
I feel that I should do something. My midterms are coming up in a month and I don't want this to affect my academic endeavours. However I'm scared that this might ruin everything and I would be screwed.
I'm not trying to ask for advices specifically, maybe I just need a bit of consolation. But feel free if you would like to give advices. This is the internet, and I think there is room for a guy to be weak and emotional. I hide it well in real life though, and I am reluctant to tell this to my friends. That is probably why I feel so out of control.
Thank you for your time...
I can't think of any other girl that I like right now. I don't know if she notices this or not, and I hope she does. This kind of uncertainty is killing me, and I don't want to live like this anymore. I want to make a change. I don't know what this is going to do to our friendship. I know her parents, and they know me. Her sister and I are also friends. She's one of the few people on this planet that I can cry in front of without feeling embarrassed.
I feel that I should do something. My midterms are coming up in a month and I don't want this to affect my academic endeavours. However I'm scared that this might ruin everything and I would be screwed.
I'm not trying to ask for advices specifically, maybe I just need a bit of consolation. But feel free if you would like to give advices. This is the internet, and I think there is room for a guy to be weak and emotional. I hide it well in real life though, and I am reluctant to tell this to my friends. That is probably why I feel so out of control.
Thank you for your time...