You must lead a sad, depressed life to be so pessimistic, and to believe that the only way to protect oneself is with a gun and the intent to kill. It's a shame, really, as the world is full of wonderful things and people.
Why do you conclude that? You've jumped the shark by stating there's a connection between my happiness in life and gun ownership laws. I simply state you need to protect yourself as nobody else will. That's not an emotional state - it's reality.