UGH, I have to vent to someone, and I cannot vent to my wife and daughter because I have to be a rock for them right now. Here is what has happened. At the end of March, my wife and I found out she was pregnant. We were scared to death because of her age, and the risks that are involved with women 40 and over having children. Through much prayer we decided that it didn't matter if we wanted more children, the fact was we were pregnant, and were going to have another child. We were excited. Two days later we found out that it was a tubular pregnancy, and it would have to be terminated. Also they found a cyst on her ovary and said we should have it looked at in a few months. Instead of surgery, the doctor recommended methatrexate which is a chemotherapy agent. This would dissolve the fetus and thus avoid surgery. The next day my daughter came down with the flu. And she missed 11 days of school. I was taking care of my wife and my daughter, and of course, had to miss the first week and a half of this month working. Then the doctor decided that my wife had to have another round of the methatrexate, so I was home with her for another week. The next wednesday the doctor gave her the all clear and said the shot had worked to come back once a week for six weeks for blood tests to confirm the shot was still working. Well, last friday we went to an OBGYN to have the cyst looked at. He informed us that it wasn't a tubular pregnancy, but in fact was in the uterus like it should be. He was shocked. He requested the radiology report from the hospital to see it, and sure enough, the radiology report says that it is a normal interuteral pregnancy. The doctor at the hospital did another ultrasound and said it was tubular and administered the shot!! Well the OBGYN said there was no heartbeat and scheduled a D&C for today. However, last Sunday my wife miscarried here at the house. Tuesday she had the D&C done to remove the rest of the tissue. She has been home resting, and I am taking care of her. Yesterday I was informed from work that because of missing this month to take care of her, they are taking away my salary for three months. I am at wits end. How the **** does so much happen at one time to people, and how the hell do we pull through this. My wife in an emotional wreck. She blames herself because she let them give her the methatrexate. And to top it off one of our close friends killed herself the week that my wife had the first shot of chemo. I want to go crawl into a corner and just curl up in a ball and loose it. My daughter is devastated, and worried about me and her mom, because she can tell that there is a lot going on. So now I am trying to take care of her, the house, our daughter, and to find a new job too. And trying to find a way to live until I do find a new job. I have sold everything we had of value except my old PowerBook and PowerMac, and I have an offer on the PowerBook, and I am going to have to take it unfortunately. Keep us in your prayers, and if you know of anyone that needs a very good IT director in Lafayette Louisiana, let me know.