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Yeah...sleep is good. I just woke up from a 13 hour coma myself. I had a rough night last night...And I wake up with a headache. Not hangover mind you. If only it was a hangover. No. This is one of those month long stress headaches.

I'm going to burn the house down and see how they cope with it. Telling me to "get over it". I'm going to eat something.

I need a date.
 
Sounds like you need a hug :).

For what it's worth:

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A virtual hug :).

_Emerson
 
A form of resolution

Chip NoVaMac said:
I hope you and I both can find peace. Not sure how for each of us. But I do pray for all of us that face pasts that we can find a conclusion to; that we are shown the way to inner peace.
Chip,
I agree that the passage of time does indeed soften the memories, but on a base level the sorrow is still just as intense. If you consider that life is a constant progression to an ultimate end, then when all parties have reached their end point, a twinning will be achieved and not before.

I'm nearly in a position to know when that will be. It'll be with this knowledge that will make the passing so much easier. It will also give an end point to direct my endeavours until that appointed time.

I have always been somewhat fatalistic, so it's no great problem for me. Along with the own personal triumvirate of buddhism, shinto and judaism melded to a 'faith' of my own helps a lot. Remember the analogy of the books being returned and replaced on the book shelf? So when the time comes for reissuing, the reincarnation is achieved. All pretty arcane I'm afraid.

At the moment I'm perfectly content, but I'll have to get my butt into gear and work on getting personal affairs in order. I left this aspect on the back burner for far too long. I'm a prize procrastinator.

Y'all take care and stay safe.
Kevin,
aka Grey Beard
 
I have a knack for procrastination too, but maybe we should talk about that later ;).

leekohler said:
Do you feel any better today? Take your Echinacea and zinc like a good scem0. :)

I feel much better today :). All the soup flushed the cold right out of my system. I still cough occassionally, and I was a wee bit phlegmy this morning, but I feel good.

I'm excited, Spirit sent me an email:

M&M nite @ spirit
2 hour M&M Marathon 10-12
all Madonna ... all Mariah for two full hours !
Celebrating the release of their New Hit Singles:
Mariah Carey"Dont Forget About Us"&"Get your number"
Madonna "Hung Up"

I'm not too wild about Madonna, I like how she pushed people's buttons, but I've never been a fan of her music. The opposite applies for Mariah, I could listen to her ballads all day, but I can't say I'm a fan of her personality.

So, I can't wait to go to Spirit tonight.

Also, everyone here is probably beyond caring anymore, but X called me again and might be at Spirit tonight. He didn't seem cranky like last week, so that's good. I'm still confused about him, what he wants, and how much he wants it :p. According to what he has said, he wants friendship, and since he is calling me it appears that he wants it enough to at least make a call. But why would he want my friendship? He has liived in NYC for years now, he has friends, I met them... they are cool.

Oh well, I don't care, I'm willing to be his friend, he is nice :).

_Emerson
 
scem0 said:
I have a knack for procrastination too, but maybe we should talk about that later ;).



I feel much better today :). All the soup flushed the cold right out of my system. I still cough occassionally, and I was a wee bit phlegmy this morning, but I feel good.

I'm excited, Spirit sent me an email:



I'm not too wild about Madonna, I like how she pushed people's buttons, but I've never been a fan of her music. The opposite applies for Mariah, I could listen to her ballads all day, but I can't say I'm a fan of her personality.

So, I can't wait to go to Spirit tonight.

Also, everyone here is probably beyond caring anymore, but X called me again and might be at Spirit tonight. He didn't seem cranky like last week, so that's good. I'm still confused about him, what he wants, and how much he wants it :p. According to what he has said, he wants friendship, and since he is calling me it appears that he wants it enough to at least make a call. But why would he want my friendship? He has liived in NYC for years now, he has friends, I met them... they are cool.

Oh well, I don't care, I'm willing to be his friend, he is nice :).

_Emerson

Yeah- don't push it too much. Be his friend if that's what he wants.
 
Someone care to translate?
my handy latin phrases dind't include these ones...
and a translator I found on line didn't help either.
 
DJY said:
Someone care to translate?
my handy latin phrases dind't include these ones...
and a translator I found on line didn't help either.
Carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero;
Snatch at today and trust as little as you can in tomorrow.

Verbus (verbum ?) Prudentae (prudentia ? too long for me too) ex Grey Beard
loosely; wise words from Grey Beard
 
Grey Beard said:
Chip,
I agree that the passage of time does indeed soften the memories, but on a base level the sorrow is still just as intense. If you consider that life is a constant progression to an ultimate end, then when all parties have reached their end point, a twinning will be achieved and not before.

I'm nearly in a position to know when that will be. It'll be with this knowledge that will make the passing so much easier. It will also give an end point to direct my endeavours until that appointed time.

I have always been somewhat fatalistic, so it's no great problem for me. Along with the own personal triumvirate of buddhism, shinto and judaism melded to a 'faith' of my own helps a lot. Remember the analogy of the books being returned and replaced on the book shelf? So when the time comes for reissuing, the reincarnation is achieved. All pretty arcane I'm afraid.

At the moment I'm perfectly content, but I'll have to get my butt into gear and work on getting personal affairs in order. I left this aspect on the back burner for far too long. I'm a prize procrastinator.

Y'all take care and stay safe.
Kevin,
aka Grey Beard


Kevin,

Thanks for your words. As you can tell, I do go through periods of fear, doubt, loathing, hatred. I just finished watching a movie about Corrie ten Boom, a Christian survivor of the Ravensbruck camp during WWII. Her words, "There is no pit so deep that God’s love is not deeper still" and "God will give us the love to be able to forgive our enemies." was what I needed to hear. for me Faith has gotten me through the trails of late. And just when I thought I had reached my darkest point, God showed me some sign that I am not alone. That He has me in His care.

Sometimes I forget that. And then I am reminded in some small way that my Faith should be stronger. With each passing day since April, I have learned that God (as I was taught and believe in) is not a vengeful God, but a loving, compassionate parent of His children.

I too have found my Faith to be a blending of many other Faiths. It may fit the Hollywood mold, but I do believe that when we are called Home (heaven) that if we past muster, then we enter Heaven. If not, then we are sent back to "redeem" ourselves; either as "angels", or in a new life - to start a anew.

Kevin, I am distressed a bit by what you speak of your situation. And I pray that things go well for you. For you have been one of God's angels for me. I understand that we can not live forever. And sometimes good life's are cut short. But as long as we try to add some benefit to our fellow man, then the deck is stacked in our favor. And IMO you are holding the "Royal Flush"!
 
Hmmm...why learn latin? Any particular reason, or did you just think it would be neat? I wouldn't mind learning it so that I could read all the old writings and stuff...that would be cool...I bet there's lots of stuff about gay orgies from Rome...
 
Guitarius said:
Hmmm...why learn latin? Any particular reason, or did you just think it would be neat? I wouldn't mind learning it so that I could read all the old writings and stuff...that would be cool...I bet there's lots of stuff about gay orgies from Rome...

I studied Latin for a year, when I was seriously thinking about the priesthood. Other than that I probably would not have.
 
Guitarius said:
Hmmm...why learn latin? Any particular reason, or did you just think it would be neat? I wouldn't mind learning it so that I could read all the old writings and stuff...that would be cool...I bet there's lots of stuff about gay orgies from Rome...
If you're going to travel in Europe, Latin gives you an excellent grounding for French, Italian, Spanish and Portuguese.
 
I studied it because I went to a kooky private elementary school, and in my 6th grader mind I thought it would be cooler to take Latin than Spanish. Continued it high school to satisfy language credit requirements.

Being from Texas, I know quite a bit of Spanish anyways.

edit - kind of a dissappointing night. The club I went to, Spirit, was fun, but Avalon is better IMO. The guys at Spirit weren't as attractive or as good of dancers. I definitely got a lot of exercise though. I danced alone the whole night, only danced with another person once. The guy I danced with was really sexy, and I was enjoying the hell out of myself, but his friends dragged him off somewhere, and I was left to dance alone again. I got approached a couple times by guys that I didn't find attractive, but I decided I'd rather not lead them on and I'd avoid such situations. So, I danced alone for hours on end, and I danced on stage for a long time too. Dancing on stage is fun :).

I walked home from the club, which is pretty far away. From 11th ave and 28th to Broadway and 18th - took me 30 minutes. My legs feel all nice and tired right now :). Next week I'll either go to Avalon or the Rambles.

_Emerson
 
Great Expectations

scem0 said:
edit - kind of a dissappointing night. The club I went to, Spirit, was fun, but Avalon is better IMO. The guys at Spirit weren't as attractive or as good of dancers. I definitely got a lot of exercise though. I danced alone the whole night, only danced with another person once. The guy I danced with was really sexy, and I was enjoying the hell out of myself, but his friends dragged him off somewhere, and I was left to dance alone again._Emerson
Two ways to look at a disappointing night; If you approach it with no expectations, then you'll never be let down. Should you be missing your target then aim higher. If your arrow flies low then you'll be on the mark.

In a more jocular vein, when a shot is loosed and the target remains unblemished. then it's time to check for guacamole on your respective jeans.

Kevin,
aka Grey Beard (with a he he he and a ho ho ho)
 
resolving the unresolvable

Chip NoVaMac said:
Kevin,

Thanks for your words.

Sometimes I forget that. And then I am reminded in some small way that my Faith should be stronger.

I too have found my Faith to be a blending of many other Faiths. It may fit the Hollywood mold, but I do believe that when we are called Home (heaven) that if we past muster, then we enter Heaven. If not, then we are sent back to "redeem" ourselves; either as "angels", or in a new life - to start a anew.

Kevin, I am distressed a bit by what you speak of your situation. And I pray that things go well for you. For you have been one of God's angels for me. I understand that we can not live forever. And sometimes good life's are cut short. But as long as we try to add some benefit to our fellow man, then the deck is stacked in our favor. And IMO you are holding the "Royal Flush"!
Well Guys,
I figure that faith, no matter of what type, will find it's own level according to the situation in question. Just think of it as an inner strength and not as a grade that must be achieved.

I really think that I must be one of the pearly gates rejects sent back as needing redemption. If you could see me at the moment, you'd think I'd been around the mill several times. But karma is something that is earned. Just like brownie points.

As far as I'm concerned, I'm a tough little bar steward and It takes a sh*t load to get me down for long. Don't worry unduly about me. I'll be getting the first real prognosis on Thursday, then there'll be all the specialists and tests. Hell, I'll be able to stretch this lot out well into old age. Thinking of the Royal Flush, is that like another queen down the loo?

Y'all play fair.
Kevin,
aka Grey Beard
 
Orgies, yum yum.

Guitarius said:
Hmmm...why learn latin? Any particular reason, or did you just think it would be neat? I wouldn't mind learning it so that I could read all the old writings and stuff...that would be cool...I bet there's lots of stuff about gay orgies from Rome...
Hey Dave,
I'm sure you'll find orgies galore in Rome, but it may help to be Bi. If you think of the phrase greek love, then I think for orgies, you'd be better off to look towards Greece. Perhaps check the Google Images to satiate your purile and salacious appetite, and then send the links to me. He he he.
Hugs,
Kevin,
aka Grey Beard.

ps. Hope your ailing carcass is on the improve.
 
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