For the last time, you people are in denial if you still believe savar's theory after the number of independent coincidences. Things start and stop without one telling another, so don't try to morph the facts of probability to make believe everything that isn't in Merriam's has no possibility of existing or happening.
You aren't discussing science or the scientific method... you are now adhering to Faith. Faith, if I may use one particular reference, is:
Hebrews11:1 said:
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
You are basically testifying that what you have experienced is, to you, true. And you are tacitly admitting that your phenomena will never be "proven" by any objective means.
People believe a lot of things, and it is that belief that make those things "real". You *want* these things to be real, at some level within yourself. No one can say you are "right" or "wrong", that's up to you. At the same time, any suggestion that you get "counseling" or "therapy" should not be taken as an insult. Rather, take it as sources of help and further experience.
If you didn't like your doctor's recommendation, you'd seek a second opinion, right? If you thought your mechanic was being a little squirrelly on his repair quote, you'd not hesitate to ask another mechanic, right?
Same thing here. Something is going on. It's pestering you something fierce. Your choices are to live with it quietly, get it fixed, or convince the world that everyone without this situation is wrong.
Sounds to me like you may have opted for the latter option, and are preaching your own gospel. Before you go too far that way, get a qualified second opinion.
Either way, best of luck.