Sorry to hear about your troubles. I have found that when things have been tough in my life prayer has been helpful. Not necessarily in getting things to go my way but in seeing that God is all wise and he knows exactly what we need and is able to provide.
How do good men do everything right and things not work the way they have always been promised.
You are one of the first in line, you track ovulation, you get yearly checkups and physicals, you have sex every other day, you rescue animals, you are law abiding, you don't abuse people, you don't use people, you act curtious, chivalrous, you are kind and giving, you are generous and of good will, you don't do drugs or drink, you love your family, you don't make business decisions out of desperation, you don't steal, you don't lie, you don't cheat, you follow the rules, you put your money where your mouth is, you don't step on the backs of other and...
You end up last. This stupid watch that I couldn't care less about anymore is the perfect metaphor and I am sick of it. I want things to go my way. ONCE. And I know there are others who are worse off and if I was them I'd have worse complaints. But for me, in the life I'm in. This sucks. Mostly, it makes me more depressed to be so depressed over people who deserve to be even more depressed.
I'm sorry, I need to vent with strangers because there's no one I can say this to.