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There are times for all of us where we need support. I've not experienced exactly what you are going through, but have had many life changing, life stopping, unthinkable painful experiences. Talking about it and staying connected is vital to getting back on your feet and getting through it. We're here because we get something out of it too. For me, personally, I am grateful for the chance to meet someone who has beat back negativity, found a way to deal with the hardest thing that anyone could deal with and even care enough about strangers to stop and say "Thank You." You're an impressive human being and I'm glad to know you.
 
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I don't pop into Community Discussion too often anymore, so I just saw this. As a father of a teenage daughter, I couldn't imagine dealing with that you are. I just know you are showing massive strength and honoring your daughter by continuing on with each day.

As someone with BP2, I fully understand dealing with the demons.

Just remember, they are demons for a reason and never worth giving in too.
 
Today makes 3 months without my daughter. I always thought I would live the rest of my life with her. I just realized, she lived the rest of her life with me. Mondays are always hard for me. Today seems even harder. The waves of grief hitting me today are drowning me. I just miss her so very much.
 
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Raist, I cant imagine how hard this is but have you and your family in my prayers. Stay strong and live well in honor of her memory. She was lucky to have been so loved when she was here. Sending positive energy and well wishes your way.
 
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Today makes 3 months without my daughter. I always thought I would live the rest of my life with her. I just realized, she lived the rest of her life with me. Mondays are always hard for me. Today seems even harder. The waves of grief hitting me today are drowning me. I just miss her so very much.
Stay strong. She lives on in your memories of her. Remember the good times. Forget the rest.
It’s 40 months for me. Still struggle some days.
I try to busy myself with things as much as I can.
 
Today makes 3 months without my daughter. I always thought I would live the rest of my life with her. I just realized, she lived the rest of her life with me. Mondays are always hard for me. Today seems even harder. The waves of grief hitting me today are drowning me. I just miss her so very much.

She was lucky to have been so loved and to have been made aware of that.

The sense of profound loss will remain with you - but will ebb and flow, and be felt more fiercely at times. I miss my mum, gone now just over four months, and feel the loss somehow more strongly today.

The only advice I can tender is to be kind to yourself, allow yourself time to grieve, and treasure the memory of the time you had together.
 
Today makes 3 months without my daughter. I always thought I would live the rest of my life with her. I just realized, she lived the rest of her life with me. Mondays are always hard for me. Today seems even harder. The waves of grief hitting me today are drowning me. I just miss her so very much.
Wanted to check in on you. Thought about you this morning as I was perusing watched threads. Said a prayer for you. Hope you’re healing.
 
Thank you for thinking of me and my family. As for me? I am surviving. Doing the best I can with each day I am given.
Tomorrow would have been my daughters graduation. She won the presidential award for academics. My wife and I will be accepting her diploma and award. I had to struggle with the school to get them to leave my daughters chair empty. She earned that chair to be present for one hour.

I miss her beyond words can ever express. There was just so much more I had to tell her. So much more we had to do.
 
It's good to hear from you. She will always be alive in your memories and she would appreciate your honoring her the way that you are.

I think that loved ones who have passed watch over us. I've got too much evidence of this to imagine that it's not true. She is at peace and has all the answers now.

I'm glad to hear that you are getting by and hope that you and your wife take comfort tomorrow in the fact that you did a wonderful job raising her.

Be well :).
 
Thank you for thinking of me and my family. As for me? I am surviving. Doing the best I can with each day I am given.
Tomorrow would have been my daughters graduation. She won the presidential award for academics. My wife and I will be accepting her diploma and award. I had to struggle with the school to get them to leave my daughters chair empty. She earned that chair to be present for one hour.

I miss her beyond words can ever express. There was just so much more I had to tell her. So much more we had to do.
That will be a tough day. I hope it goes okay.
 
Thank you for thinking of me and my family. As for me? I am surviving. Doing the best I can with each day I am given.
Tomorrow would have been my daughters graduation. She won the presidential award for academics. My wife and I will be accepting her diploma and award. I had to struggle with the school to get them to leave my daughters chair empty. She earned that chair to be present for one hour.

I miss her beyond words can ever express. There was just so much more I had to tell her. So much more we had to do.

The best of luck with tomorrow which I can only imagine will be a day equally full of pride at who she was and what she achieved and pain at the fresh reminder of your loss.

Do take care of yourselves and be kind to yourselves, and salute - with laughter and tears if necessary - the memory of a brilliant and talented girl who was taken tragically from you all too soon.
 
I remembered this thread and had to scroll so far back through my list of contributed threads. How are you doing? I hope you are well :)

Still struggle on a Daily basis. But the waves don’t come as often as they did. I have been trying to live in the sunshine of my daughters life as opposed to the shadows that are her loss. It’s not easy, and a picture, or a word, smell, or thought can still break me down. But I see the progress I have made in eight months.
Thank you so much for checking in. It means so much.
 
Still struggle on a Daily basis. But the waves don’t come as often as they did. I have been trying to live in the sunshine of my daughters life as opposed to the shadows that are her loss. It’s not easy, and a picture, or a word, smell, or thought can still break me down. But I see the progress I have made in eight months.
Thank you so much for checking in. It means so much.
I am glad to see you are still working on your life, and that you have not given up on living again. I wish you the best in the progress you will continue to make.
 
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Still struggle on a Daily basis. But the waves don’t come as often as they did. I have been trying to live in the sunshine of my daughters life as opposed to the shadows that are her loss. It’s not easy, and a picture, or a word, smell, or thought can still break me down. But I see the progress I have made in eight months.
Thank you so much for checking in. It means so much.
It does get easier. But the terrible loss will always be with you and part of you.
Can be the stupidest of things that upset you. But hang in there and know you are not alone.
Our thoughts are with you.
 
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