We had been doing better yesterday, but the minute we're in a better place again then I start to feel very anxious and like my wife is pushing my parents away and being unreasonable. Then I begin to talk to her about it and everything spirals backwards.
Is she being unreasonable?
Answer: No.
This morning for example, I started telling her how I'm frustrated that when we visited my parents house, that she was in a cold/bad mood most of the time, and that part of accepting that my parents are going to be part of our life to some degree…...
Of course she was in a 'cold, bad mood most of the time' while visiting your parents when you had made it abundantly clear by your behaviour that your relationship with your mother took priority over your relationship with your wife.
Moreover, you made it equally clear that you see her concerns as irrelevant, and - above all - inconvenient. By your conduct it is manifestly clear that you don't respect her concerns, wishes and feelings. Not only are your wife's concerns
not taken into account when you deal with your mother, but it is also clear to her, that your wife is of so little worth that she is not even paid the brief respect of having been consulted before you chose to do something (such as hand Baby over to Granny).
And, why does she have to accept your parents?
And why should she have to pretend to be happy? She can't stand them.
With respect, I think you ask too much of your wife, and far too little of yourself.
Are you sure you have your priorities straight, here? Shouldn't your priority as a young husband, and a young father, instead be along the lines of supporting your wife, and setting (and enforcing) strict boundaries on your mother? Instead of prioritising your relationship with your mother, and undermining your wife by dismissing her feelings as of no concern - other than a massive inconvenience to you.
She said "I really despise your mom, I get in a bad mood when she's around. Do you want me to pretend I'm happy?"
I suggest that you re-read that sentence.
Your wife's chief task is to be a good mother for her young child. It is not her job to be 'happy' around a woman she detests and despises, and I fail to see why you are asking this of her.
Your disloyalty to her, and your profound lack of support and understanding of her position, your inability to give stable support to the family unit you have created together, and your conflicted feelings are not in any way helping her to achieve that.
I have this feeling that it is reasonable to ask her to try to be happy when my mom is around or when we visit my family. Is it not? Is her being willing to go/have her visit at all good enough? This is a very contentious point right now, and I currently feel absolutely horrible because I just made things worse in my marriage again bringing this up for her. She said in a bitter voice "I'll just do whatever you want!" I pleaded with her to not disconnect like that and that I want to connect and communicate and work things out, not just have either of us resign to something that doesn't work, and end up killing the marriage.
What are everyone's thoughts about this issue? If she says "I'm okay with your mom visiting once a month" but is then unhappy while she's here, was that deceptive on her part? Passive aggressive? She says she can't help how she feels.
No, it is not reasonable. It is clear that you haven't taken in a single syllable of the advice that has been tendered in this thread so far. Instead, you are waiting for posts to tell you that this is not your problem, that it is your wife's, because she is unreasonable. That is what you want to hear.
What is 'reasonable' is to support your wife, and limit any sort of exposure to your mother. By asking her to be 'happy' you are actually making it clear that her feelings on the matter have absolutely no validity, or worth, or weight with you. You don't acknowledge them, accept, support them or respect them. And, in her mind, you neither support nor respect her, either.
"Deceptive"? "Passive aggressive?" Do you think your wife has the right to even express an emotion that you don't much like, because reading your post, I am beginning to think that you want a Stepford Wife, (even though that might prove 'deceptive' if it means suppressing, or masking, your true feelings).
Why do you expect your wife to echo faithfully your feelings about your mother?
And why shouldn't she be aggressive (nothing passive about it) when you have made it clear that not only will you not support her, but that you will do everything possible to frustrate her, and deny her feelings, and refuse to allow her to openly express them.
Indeed, by your response, you have made it abundantly clear that the only response you want from your wife is one where she meets your demands to 'be happy' around an emotional bully, whom she despises and detests.
Why did you bring it up again? Of course you should feel horrible (and, as always, this thread is all about you and your feelings, rather than the feelings of your wife who deserves and needs your support, instead of which you dismiss, and denigrate and undermine her concerns).
Once again, I will reiterate: The problem is not your wife's relationship with your mother. In fact, your wife is under
no obligation whatsoever to be 'happy', (especially as she has made it perfectly clear that she despises your mother) or to admit your mother into her - or her child's life - and it is not 'reasonable' to expect this.
What is reasonable is for her to expect your unconditional support, which you are manifestly not giving her.
This is because the problem (although you insist on framing it as such) is not your wife's relationship with your mother.
Rather, it is your relationship with your mother.