Hi guys- As the title, I broke up with my best friend, my lover; my girlfriend, we had a two-years relationship. We were going to live together in a year and we were planning to get married by 2018. I am completely devastated, I like to blame myself because my sister says that I refuse to see that she had mistakes too. We were having problems (like everyone does) but most times (after a fight) we would overcome them... She lives in another city but we made FaceTime calls every Sunday and talk ALL DAY on the phone or WhatsApp... The times we saw each other physically, they were beautiful memories. We spent a month in a cabin in a beautiful city, she was with me when my grandma died, at my college prom, when I got my first job and many milestones of my life. I spent a week with her and her family and everything just seemed to be perfect. Lately she was saying that I was not for there, that she felt alone and that I never notice... And saturday night she was behaving very weird since morning and she kept being online on WhatsApp but never talking to me. I was very upset so I said we should then talk later. I had a party at my dad's girlfriend place and we didn't talk all day. At night I sent her a "I love you" text and she just replied "..." "me too" and we started fighting because I'm not there for her... And everything just fell to a very strong verbal fight, swearings and both saying things we would never say to each other. I am completely lost, that was not me but she swore that I would never see her again... Now she blocked me from iMessage, WhatsApp and won't answer my calls... I just want to apologize and try to rescue this (again)... But my sister and my friends tell me that it's just not worhth anymore, too much fights and stuff. I really need some advise from anyone on what to do, I've been crying like a little bitch, I haven't eaten since, I don't want to go to the gym or play Smash Bros (my two most favourite activities). I just want to have a car crash and end this pain.