Look, I've told you before, the internet is not a safe place for the fragile. And I'm considering you fragile, since you seem to be allowing a whole bunch of strangers that you will never meet affect your self esteem. You can either post here and engage with those who do not have bullying in mind, understanding that we all have different viewpoints, or you can find another outlet to meet your needs. But when you ask what people think, you have to be prepared to actually hear what people think.
Please don't come back with another grand apology for your current meltdown. If you want to hang out on the forum and enjoy the good parts, then do it. No big announcements necessary.